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4/28/10

Better to live life - Loser lyrics by 3 Doors Down and video

WARNING...this card may be a bit too much to some. I've been on the side of suicide and while I don't glorify or condone it...it happens...much too much for me to even grasp. So I'm posting this warning for those that may be offended by it. Do NOT open it if you're easily offended. Thanks!

Please no hate mail...I DID post a warning!

The card I made HERE is actually a reminder of a place I was once back in the days. I felt alone and helpless at the situation happening at home. While my mother was an alcoholic and my father an abuser beating my mom to a pulp...as I hid an ran to my room to cry and ball up in a corner and pray for it to stop...I thought I would find something worth while in trying to end my life. The things that I saw growing up was nothing I wish on anyone to see. It literally killed my youth...my childhood...my soul...but now as an adult...I grew better from it. It's something I will NEVER want show in my home. Unfortunately my kids did see a little of it when they were small and with my parents living with me. I was at my wits end until I gave both my parents an ultimatum if they wanted to continue living with me...thank God it stopped and my children didn't see more of what I saw. Still with my suicidal self...fortunately...my many attempts didn't work. Divine intervention? I don't think so...maybe I was just too chicken $#!t to fall through with my attempts. I knew I had something better with my life. I have my scar as a reminder of an ugly place I was and would never want to be again. It serves as a reminder to teach my kids that suicide is NOT the solution. So after my failed attempts...I said "F IT! I might as well live"! Here is a song that hits near to me... It's Loser by 3 Doors Down. If you're ready to see the card...just go HERE!

If you ever have these thoughts...there are people out there that care enough to save you...here is a place to turn to when you feel alone...


Loser by 3 Doors Down

Breathe in right away.
Nothing seems to fill this place.
I need this everytime
So take your lies, get off my case.
Someday I will find
A love that flows through me like this
This will fall away, this will fall away.

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall
'Cause I'm a loser, I'm a loser, yeah.

This is getting old.
I can't break these chains that I hold
My body's growing cold
There's nothing left of this mind or my soul.
Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of this poison is taking me higher.
This will fall away, this will fall away.

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge.
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall
'Cause I'm a loser
I'm a loser!

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge.
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall.
'Cause I'm a loser

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall.
'Cause I'm a loser.


7 comments:

DonnaMundinger said...

Hey Gabby! So sorry for what you went through but so glad you chose LIFE and helped protect your kids from the horrors you experienced. As far as the card, it's FAB! Perfect sentiment and great representation of the song! xxD

Creepy Glowbugg said...

Wow,heavy post.
I was a morose teenager whos parents were abusive physically and mentally to each other and myself.
I tried to die a few times, but never really had the guts to do it "the right way", as my dad told me how to cut my wrists properly to avoid a failed attempt 'next time'.
I feel your pain. To this day I still feel my pain.
Your card is amazing, and I'm afraid you may have won the challenge at HDH this week too!
Your honing in on my turf lady. I guess I have to step up my game to be competitive with your gorgeous creations!

Lisa and Eddy said...

I like your card! Life is what it is...sometimes good...sometimes not so good. I'm glad you were a chicken shit...it's people who can stand up and tell their story who will help end the bullshit! xo Lisa

Barb said...

What a deeply personal post... thanks, Gabby, for sharing some of yourself with us. Not many would be so bold.

Your card TOTALLY reflects your story, as well as the sorrowful lyrics of the song. Beautiful in that fantastically dark way that we're not supposed to love ;) Thanks so much for playing along with Macabre Monday!

Cheryl Valadez said...

Wow, Gabby. Such a powerful and personal creation. It's a dark topic, but a sad reality for so many...good for you, for bringing it into the light of day.

Lots of folks think because we make cards, they should always be swimming in happiness and fun, but art is about releasing emotions and feelings, and letting them spill out onto a page, a canvas, a piece of paper, etc. It elicits an emotional response in the viewer...a gasp, a smile, a giggle, a thought, a reflective pause, an unexpected second look. And for that, I love your fearless little art piece and it's thought provoking beauty.

Renée said...

I do admire you for having the guts to share this with everyone. Most of the people who have had those feelings and trying to act on it or those who still do like to keep everything to themselves.
I'm glad you didn't have the guts to go through with it. Life is worth living.
Very impressive card.

Linda aka Oz said...

Your post is very strong, hard to read and touching at same time. Thank you and so glad you came through to a place that you can now share.
I really liked your card. I have that frayed wire feeling sometimes. Oz